Junkie thinking took over. I need to get over junkie thinking. I have to get over smoking. I know i have to. Its not as hard as it seems. It might not seem easy but it is. I just have to try. Long enough. But its been long now. I decided to quit Jan 1st, I decided to quit May 14th. I dint smoke for two days. I should stop. In fact I shouldn't think of stopping smoking. I should think of something else that'll keep my thoughts focused.
What else will I take seriously? This opens up a whole new chapter. What do I need to do? I will obviously miss smoking cos its turned into a habit of two years now. I should give my self a break. Who am I kidding?
I am close to finishing another pack of Turkish Golds now. Aaargh!
Friday, May 28, 2010
Thursday, May 27, 2010
Junkie Thinking
I gave into junkie thinking and smoked two cigs yesterday and one today. I have start all over again.
Sadly, its giving me a thrill, knowing i have to start over again. I think i know what my problem is. I find a source of real happiness and try to make it happen again and again.
I dont realize that the fun i get from the source is valid only for once. :)
Sadly, its giving me a thrill, knowing i have to start over again. I think i know what my problem is. I find a source of real happiness and try to make it happen again and again.
I dont realize that the fun i get from the source is valid only for once. :)
Wednesday, May 26, 2010
Urge #4,5 and 6
I had two more really strong urges to smoke a cigarette. I really hope I don't puff another smoke ever.
I just ate now and I have a really strong urge to smoke. I don't know what to do. It's driving me nuts.
I just ate now and I have a really strong urge to smoke. I don't know what to do. It's driving me nuts.
Milestone #3
Its 11 AM and i quit at 7.30 PM.
Milestone 3 reached.
8 hours after quitting, the level of carbon monoxide in your blood drops as the oxygen increases to the normal level of a non-smoker. This is one of the best advantages of quitting smoking, as carbon monoxide robs your muscles, brain and tissues of oxygen.
Milestone 3 reached.
8 hours after quitting, the level of carbon monoxide in your blood drops as the oxygen increases to the normal level of a non-smoker. This is one of the best advantages of quitting smoking, as carbon monoxide robs your muscles, brain and tissues of oxygen.
Tuesday, May 25, 2010
reflections
I don't want to cause permanent damage to my vision and go blind.
I don't want to lose my leg(either one) to gangrene.
I want my hands to do my guitaring for a longtime without tiring.
I don't want my lungs to look like burnt crap.
I want to be able to sing like I used to before.
I don't want to lose my leg(either one) to gangrene.
I want my hands to do my guitaring for a longtime without tiring.
I don't want my lungs to look like burnt crap.
I want to be able to sing like I used to before.
Milestone #2
2 hours:
I quit at 7.30ish this evening. It has been 2.5 hours since with two real urges to smoke.
I think that's not too bad.For which I am grateful obviously.
Sigh. I wish i made a cent every time i have a smoking urge.
I quit at 7.30ish this evening. It has been 2.5 hours since with two real urges to smoke.
I think that's not too bad.For which I am grateful obviously.
Sigh. I wish i made a cent every time i have a smoking urge.
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